arontius | Philosophy Check. (Reply)

.....Sigh! I'm conflicted, but what else is new. :-)

.....NAVSEA left today, after leaving us a laundry list of actions to go and do. I took the list and started making plans to get the actions done and out of our hair as quickly as possible. When, like the seagull he is, the mid-level boss swooped in with a new agenda. Seems I need to go to Georgia next Wednesday for a conference at which I'll be ill prepared to answer real questions.

.....Let's not talk about the fact that I come back home the Saturday following. Sigh!

.....I'm feeling all ticked off with the Universe at that point, and doing my best to hide it. I left work with a huge pile of 'stuff' on my desk. I probably should have stayed a while to get it out of the way, but I really didn't want to.

.....When I get home I am introduced briefly to the new member of the family, the hedgehog Stella, and am reminded that today is Rhys' twelfth birthday. Nominally, I contributed towards the purchase of Stella and her accoutrement, but I feel badly at this point for forgetting to pick up a birthday present and / or card like I promised myself earlier in the week.

.....As if that wasn't enough of a reminder, the universe calmly informs me again via another LJ post from a long time friend that I need to stop feeling sorry for myself as there are people out there with real things to fear and real battles to fight, like cancer. And in reality I've got things pretty good. I have a good job, a beautiful and talented spouse, a bright and bubbly stepson, a decent house, decent health and no overwhelming financial disasters.

.....I've read a lot of books and listened to a lot of intelligent people dole out really good advice, but I still find myself falling into the trap of hating the moment instead of living in it and accepting it. I find myself sitting idle when I should be energizing my spirit. This inertia though is like really thick proverbial molasses.

.....I'll keep moving and trying and doing my best to figure out a way to thin that molasses. If that is the best I can do at the moment, than I really need to stop getting steamed and frustrated and just move forward as best I can.

.....Wow! Twelve years old. It's hard to believe now that even I remember a day not that long ago when I could swing Rhys up and onto my shoulders for a piggy back ride. He's grown at least a foot since then. I better not blink too often, I might find myself waking up and seeing this giant standing in front of me threatening to throw ME over his shoulders!

.....Aaron.