Arontius of Bygelswade

.....A tongue tied title for a day that is starting off with a headache of the spiritual kind. :-)

.....I definitely try my best to do the right thing and be an overall 'good' person. Malice is not my style and no fun at all in any case. So, I'm starting to find out that a handful of things I've done over the past several weeks and months doesn't quite look so good on my SCA or personal resume, no matter what the original intentions or thoughts behind them were. I'm at the point where I want to pull the covers over my head and declare a 'do over'.

.....Last night Jenae asked me about a post to the Merchant's E-list that I was asked to make a week or so ago asking about merchants at Last Chance. When I was originally asked to make the post I went home and wrote it out that night as I knew that I would forget about it if I waited at all. When Jenae asked me about it last night so said that she hadn't seen anything cross the merchant's list on it. And as I thought about it later I realized that I hadn't seen anything either. I don't monitor the list a lot. It collects in a folder and I review it every month or so and then dump most of it in a clean up. So at home last night I went through the folder and realized that I hadn't received any mail from the list in about three weeks or so. Seems the merchant list dumped my comcast address because of either bouncing mail or spam blockers. It happens periodically with Comcast. So, yeah, the post never made it. I felt bad.

.....A while back I was mulling over the joining of another function. It seemed that there was a little back room politics happening and I didn't want to get in the middle of it. In fact, the idea of it happening just made me a little angry at the time. I was talking about this with a friend who told me that I ought to just talk to the people in question and get the straight story, which is always a good suggestion. I'd been mulling over the best approach for a couple of weeks when I found out that maybe good intentioned friend mentioned my angst and now there could be hurt feelings. Sigh, more clean up to do.

.....There are a couple of other things as well. But, you know, it all came together and just made me tired last night. There are times when I wish there were a little meter that always floated over your head that advertised what type of person you were, like sort of an alignment check in a Dungeons and Dragons game. Then, no matter what things I may say or do in error, someone could just look at the meter and see that whatever it is they think that I'm doing, that in general and in reality, I really am a nice guy and generally try to do the right thing. I wonder if there is some sort of hormonal check you could do scientifically that could register your level of 'good' or 'evil'? We could really clean up the SCA at that point, couldn't we? No more R&D's? That would be way cool.

.....Sigh! Wishful thinking will get me nowhere. :-) Back to work. :-)

.....Aaron / Arontius.